Day 25 (Realization or Rapport?)

I just wanted to start the day with a sweet rejection by my close friend. Thanks for fueling more fire in me. The point is many people will think you’re a creep, weirdo, or scum for just trying to do creative things. They will think that you’re some ridiculous piece of meat for even trying to talk to them. Some will think that you’re nothing until you prove otherwise. I already know how people tend to find a group and bask in it. They like their group and want to keep it the way it is. To any outsiders, that means absolute disregard. I don’t mind. They are entitled to their opinion. I am entitled to do what I want.

Asked the person next to me if she had some gum. She said she didn’t bring her purse so she didn’t have any with her. That’s a small rejection to warm up. I asked her how she did on the exam. She told me that she did horribly and was going to drop the class. Then she literally walked out halfway through the class and said “bye”. So I asked the guy next to me how he did. He also said he did horribly. At least the exam was equally tough for everyone.

After class, I walked to the bus stop and found someone to talk to. I also asked her for gum. (I really wanted gum). She looked totally shocked that I even asked. However, she gave me a piece. Then, we talked for about 5 minutes while the (almost always) late bus arrived. We shared all this stuff about school: our majors, class years, what to do with the major, culture background, city background, and why we chose this college.
Then we stepped on the bus and I took a seat where there was another seat open next to it. It was up to her to sit next to me or not. She past my row and sat a couple rows behind mine. What a lovely rejection. I thought I was going to make a friend but instead I got rejected. I suppose the rapport wasn’t strong enough. Life goes on.